So I’m drumming my fingers on the desk, humming, listening to some Robbie “Wobbie” Williams and White Stripes and waiting for the script that is reloading and rebuilding my Ariba Buyer instance. A bit of a time consuming process it is, despite the fact that my machine is a relatively decent specification.

Otherwise there really is not much exciting worth blogging about, or at least not much that I’m ready to reveal on a public place at this time. Let’s just say I’m carefully considering my options and trying to work my way through the mud to get to the green grass on the other side. In fact, a better analogy would be simply to say – “I’m living life.”

It is the eternal dilemma : Whether to potentially sacrifice something you hold very dearly onto in the hope that that sacrifice will result in something even better and stronger? Is it a case of saying “Carpe Diem” and just going for it? Or is it better to take the measured approach and say “I’m really very happy with my current lot and I’ll continue with the status quo”?

Putting it in writing has actually made me realize what I want.

I want to seize the opportunity.
I want to go out there and get it all or get none of it.
I want to break out of the comfortable straitjacket of mental and emotional confinement that I have tied myself into, and express my thoughts and desires without fear of consequence.

Now I just need the courage and determination to pursue it.

From “Angels”:

“…And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me,
I know that life won’t break me…”